exasperation

i feel lousy.

my online practice exams have been disastrous. i have barely a month to go before my exam and i think i have regressed. all these months of studying seems to have gone to waste and i don't think this old dog can still kick it. i have been complacent all this time until today when i've begun to doubt. modesty aside, the philippine medical board exam was easy, but this US thing just twists and stretches my brains to its limits. and it's so frustrating, really really discouraging.

and for the first time, i feel scared.